you have completely made me unknown in your world. i don't know you anymore. i wish i didn't care to know you.

thanks to a good friend i actually got to hear beautiful music tonight. the melodies made me think of how much i desire to play an instrument.it makes me angry at my parents for never getting me involved in music at a young age. it makes me furious at the guy at that music store who broke my violin and tried to make me pay for it.
it seems as though everyone around me has a passion but i think day by day the passions i though i had are drifting away (or were they even real?). i need to do. i want to do. i want to do so many things but i have so little time. maybe less time spent on foolish activities such as livejournal/myspace/facebook, i could use on things that ive been meaning to do.

why are you still haunting me? i wish you didn't come with strings. i find comfort in my music and trying to keep myself occupied (with foolish activities)so i don't have to think of you, but really i think it just makes it worse.

i don't know what to do.
i want to do.

these are so heart warming,powerful, and make my eyes swell.

http://www.theoneswelove.org/photographers.html

don't worry, i've heard the news. congrats. i'm sure you thought i would find out some how. everyday im finding out how you weren't the person i thought you were and how much you really "value" the relationship we had and never will have.

you make me sick to my stomach.


but, you, you make me giddy.

You're so nice and you're so smart
You're such a good friend, I have to break your heart
Tell you that I love you then I'll tear your world apart
Just pretend I didn't tear your world apart

another year of longing to be near him
hopefully this year will be better.

marry me will ya?
you make me feel beautiful.
time goes by too fast when i share it with you.


i dont want to sleep &&
im giving into my guilty pleasures

why do guys insist on wearing dumb ass shirts that say assholish slogans such ass

i swear it's this big
| |

or

tell your boyfriend i said thanks

or

wait it gets bigger

or

one time i saw this guy with a shirt that said something along the lines of this...
"i don't date, im a player" or something, and he proceeded to hit on me.

what the fuck are you thinking? do you seriously think that these "witty" shirts are gonna get you laid? if anything, i think these shirts will get you a fucking punch in the face, because you deserve it. i think these shirts are distasteful, tacky, and very unattractive and im sure that many other girls think the same thing.

i will admit, i've even seen girls where shirts like this, but most likely they are skanks.

okay im done ranting.

buy me an holga please.

actually im not done...

it sucks that i would go out of my way for any of my friends, but i've realized some would never do the same for me, or much less appreciate my gesture. im too nice.

can we just be friends?

i wish that could be assumed.